Boyfriends.
Mood:  crushed out
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Topic: Friends

How do u know if they are there to play or hurt?

How come when you know someone likes you, they just begin to not talk to you anymore? How come people can face there fears?

IF you cant actuallyy face the person you love, then do you really love them? ANd what if all that secrecy drives ur loveer away? What happenss if they never speak to you, do u beign to ahve a grduge aganinst them?

 But what if you really think there could be something? DO you just play along and let 'him' runnaway everytime u finallly come into eye contact. But what is worst of all... is how come everytime i finallly get a conersation running.. does he always brign up my friend. Or bring up a conversation that''she'' would love. not i?

 Is he just using me. to get close to her? 

 

XO 

Fights?
Mood:  accident prone
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Topic: Friends

7 months. Two fights already.

How come i ahev spent over 4 years with a friend and only now have we started to drift apart. Fighting over stupid little mistakes that mostly "i" made. =[ How come, if they are so little such bad reactions acure?

 MAybe they arent so little. Maybe they are really serious issues, that need to be discussed. But how do exactly do we discuss these types of issues?  After aroudn 4years youd expect to be pretty close. AND yeahp. We are. Until just recently. Im not much of a blamer but..

 eithier. My friend that recently joined my class this year has drifted us apart?

Or im just not as kind or as respectful as i used to be. 

But why. do i feel so down every time we have a fight?  How come i just feel so depressed whe i know someone or someoneS hate me?  Am i just a person who needs to be loved?

AND why do i always have sucha hard time sayign sorry-eee?  why do i always run away or rely on email to support my feelings? Does this help or is it just an easier way of facing my fears?

DOes anyone else feel the same way? Does anyone else have trouble facing there wrongs and fixing with rights, or is it just me?

XO